I came to this grand conclusion this week.
I’m aware that I’m loud, awkward and extra.
That’s probably a hard reality for my kids who are currently teenagers.
But they’ve never known me any other way.
For all of my flaws, they know without a shadow of a doubt that they get all of me — always.
I probably over share. I’m probably too vocal about so many things. But they will never have to question where they stand or wonder what I’m thinking. They know that I will always keep it real. Authenticity is my thing and I don’t hide my mistakes from them. They know that I’m learning as I go. And my hope is that that will give them permission to be flawed and fabulous and beautiful souls walking this earth, too.
I don’t want them to ever have the thought “oh, shit. What’s Mom gonna do?”. I don’t want them to fear being real and sometimes broken or overwhelmed or stressed because my goal is to always be their soft place to land. That’s not to say that I don’t correct them and lose my patience with them when they do things that are not so great; I will always be their Momma and my job is also to guide them and let them know when they’ve gone astray and help them back in the right direction.
But my love never waivers. Not for a single minute. Not ever even for a moment.
They get the best of me and I’m so proud of the young human beings that they are growing into.